I need to get up out of my chair. NOW. I need to get back to work. NOW. I can't just yet.
Last night, I cried and cried. First, I cried in anger - in rage. I railed at fate; the inevitability of it all. The more things change, the more they stay the same. 'Round and 'round we spin back to the same place we've always been.
Later, after a distraction, the second wave of sobs. This time I cried in shame.
I will sail out into my life, unchanged, unmarked. I will spend this week with friends and make new ones. I will come home to my husband and rejoice in our success. This rage and sadness will abate for me.
Because I am privileged in my skin tone.
I can ask for help from authority when I need it, unafraid, always.
I can walk alone and not fear that I will be stopped or accused or suspected.
This sadness and rage will abate for me.
After a time, my heart will quicken and be joyful.
I will be happy.
I am sad.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Sunday, June 02, 2013
Zagging with the Zig!
Labels:
20's,
fascinator,
Gatsby,
Goorin Bros,
hats,
in the shop,
Photos,
selfie
Saturday, June 01, 2013
Feeling hot, hot, hot!
You know it's a scorcher when you beg for extra, EXTRA ice!
And yes, I should have used my reusable cups! In my paltry defense, I can't wash a dish without ouching my hands. Sorry, environment.
If I confess to turning the A/C on, I'm doomed for all eternity, aren't I?
Thursday, May 30, 2013
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